Well once again something has made me become depressed again. It seems no matter how much I try to stay at least somewhat happy, something has to bring me into a depression. I know this might seem stupid, but I was watching tonights Smallville, in which a character dies. Well instantly I am reminded of my uncle who I miss so much even though he has been gone about 5 years. No matter what I do something has to make me depressed. I know people would say, go see a psch, but I have been and hate them cause they don't help or didn't help me. I also am in sort of a poetry funk because I can't get past the fact that it dosen't seem like it is mine anymore. For the longest time I was the only one who wrote poetry and I did it well. I have been writting since like Grammar School and know I don't know. Well that enough of my rambling for today